I wish I could hold you closer

Is it ok that I have been feeling down?

Will you forgive me for caving under the pressure of it all sometimes?

You tell me not to carry the weight of the world

But my shoulders are begging for the load.

Let me carry it

Just for a moment.

Will it help?

I don’t know.

But perhaps

it could teach me.

train me.

Soften my heart,

but strengthen it also.

So let me

Carry the weight

or at least

a portion of it.

the one that by right belongs to me.

and allow me

a couple of nights a week

just to collapse.

breathe.

cry.

let it out.

i need it.

and then i will be strong.

for my mother.

for my sisters.

for my brother.

for my father.

for my grandparents.

for my friends.

i will be here.

to listen.

to carry you.

i will be okay.

just let my heart cry sometimes.

and i will be alright.

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I’ve been listening to this song over the last few months: The Houses of Healing/Arwen’s Song, by Howard Shore and Liv Tyler, featured in The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. It was on my heart when I wrote this poem.